I am a critic. Critic of the first order and that automatically also puts me as a perfectionist. I cannot tolerate things that go wrong. I am the first person to notice an error and point it out. Now the other day we were watching a movie and I couldn’t help but notice the fact that as the scenes changed the handbag that was on the shoulder was not there in the next scene. I was not hunting for errors but I somehow seem to find these things out. This is just one of the many things that regularly happen. This also puts me in a place where I get into the correction mode very often. I tell myself, if it is not corrected at the earliest things might get worse! My daughter Allegra, my dog Bella and my husband are the ones who face the brunt of such a critic and perfectionist.My husband on the other hand is this calm person who lets things take its course and does not reprimand to the extent that I do. Can he tolerate injustice and wrong doings? NO! But will he take matters into his own hands and go into the I need correct things? NO again. We are two different people and I thank God for bringing us together.I love being appreciated. But since I am a perfectionist/critic I am less appreciative than corrective. Correction is good and required but when appreciation and correction don’t go hand in hand it makes life miserable for you and for the person you are dealing with. I had to learn this the hard way.
There are times when I am so hard on myself and other and my loving husband just appreciates me and reminds me that perfect is good but we will get there when Christ presents us as blameless blemish less to the father. Until then I have to strive hard, yes, but also be satisfied in the fact that I have tried to give my best and that I am better today than I was yesterday.
So I have made a choice to appreciate even the slightest positive that I see in people. It is tough especially for a person like me but I will do it since it is required and necessary. After all we are human beings yearning for love and appreciation.
