I want to be able to write. But I usually do not know what to write about. I kept researching about what one needs to do to overcome the difficulty of not being able to write. Invariable whatever or whomever I read provided only one solution. Write regularly!
I just do not understand how can one write when one does not know what to write about. Well, if you do not have an aim but want to go for a drive, then it does not really matter which direction you drive in. You just enjoy the drive. I think it is meant to be likewise.
So this morning, I turned on my laptop and with much difficulty I pushed myself to write. I began by titling this document “As you like it”. Because I had no idea about what I was going to write. And when the cursor kept blinking and waiting for key stream to inform it what to display on the monitor, I knew I was made.
There is no magic that can just make me write. I was frustrated and decided to just talk write about how difficult it is to write. This is the fourth paragraph of my diatribe about my struggle with writing.
Now that I have gotten so far, I wonder how far I can go on… Obviously I may have more complaints about my struggle. It is a struggle. But I do not want to keep talking about it.
I wish that I would improve. What should I do? I am asked to keep coming back to writing regularly. The first barrier is for me to come back to this. I am going to post this anyways and let the world (a few readers) know that I tried. And hopefully I come back again tomorrow to another day of writing. I have no idea what that would be.
I do have a few projects that I want to write for in my lifetime. I do not know if God will give me the wisdom and ability to do so eventually. I dare not begin those projects at this time. I am neither able nor capable to do them at this time. But, I aspire to get to them in sometime in the future. There you go. I have now even shared these ideas here.
Talk about feeling exposed. Now that I have bared myself here, I am going to go and relax. I hope that I return tomorrow. I am changing the title to ‘where it begins’ and hope that it begins here.
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